FANZINE

selected iPhone ‘Notes’ couplets, January 2016 – February 2017

 

 

1.

epigraph for future poem:
“You again?” –– my pharmacist

 

2.

when I invited god to punish
me for this, I meant, like, later

 

3.

Julie spotted on Lou’s to-do list:
‘choose a pronoun’ –– same

 

4.

buy bananas, cheese, weed
buy tickets to ?? somewhere

 

5.

waiting list for Dr. C., 13 weeks & counting––
is this normal? (is there a normal?

 

9.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Trans,_Switzerland
instead of coming out I’ll move to Trans, Switzerland

 

7.

we begin sentences like “When I Leave Toronto”
as if we have not already given up hope

 

8.

is it that I don’t want to get better
or that I don’t want to need to

 

6.

my skincare routine
was not equipped for this

 

10.

“Trans has an area, as of 2006, of 7.4 km2
(2.9 sq mi).”

 

10.

“Trans has a population (as of 2007) of 56,
all Swiss.”

 

11.

when you just feel awful all the time, it becomes
too easy to pity yourself, ??? to let things go

 

40.

check your privilege, everyone who has found
someone who wants to fuck you with the lights on

 

16.

overheard at the steve roggenbuck reading
“hi how are you?” “I just peed” “nice” “my hands are sticky” “wow”

 

33.

there is a wind at my back but it’s cold
wow metaphor wow

 

10.

“Over the last 10 years the population of Trans
has decreased at a rate of -17.6%.”

 

13.

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37.

“sweater so cheap
the moths wouldn’t touch it”

 

38.

PSA:
I fuck people who buy my art

 

21.

will autograph anything for money
(minimum 1 cent) (I mean Anything)

 

14.

I imagined hiding in the hollow stump in Harris’s
“North Shore, Lake Superior,” for hours

 

34.

all I want is for him to look at me & make the kind of
noise that ‘cat people’ make when they see a cat

 

22.

things to autograph:
dicks, copies of The Da Vinci Code,

 

12.

cigarettes are no longer interesting poem-fodder
& have not been since the 1930s

 

20.

you either die in obscurity, or live long enough
to see yourself become the establishment

 

30.

Jack: “that doesn’t sound like a threesome,
that just sounds like having another friend”

 

18.

behind the mountains:
taller mountains, every time

 

11.

when you just feel awful all the time it becomes too easy
to forgive yourself in pity, ??? to let things go ??

 

15.

the act of packing myself into a box
then closing the box

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_{A. Zachary lives in Toronto.  Their first novel is The End, by Anna, out now with Metatron.}