It can be true that a dick is beautiful
and that I never really wanted a dick.
I don’t want to be one of those folks for whom
being in a relationship means missing
a phone call causes more anxiety than the 127-bed
private prison being built in Eloy to hold onto
any brown person who may or may not have hopped
a white picket fence. Here, our peep-holes are hive-
made. Everywhere I go, I come on my hands. I carry
my boxes with me. Even still. This pond is a fuckfest.
42 dragonflies and when they get after each other
they become the machine we always wanted to be.
The idea was freedom. A little facial hair, a little more
money. Who isn’t worthy? Reach. Or, don’t reach.
Hanging is a misnomer
for Colie Hoffman
like like like
level the sun
is the epitome
of going up
right to be
I was young
the grass is
I’ve got to
When a grown man would put a finger inside the asshole
of a hungry little girl. A diagram may be needed. When
could be a noun or a pronoun but in this case, a conjunction
or an adverb. What is inside. We say words are deictic when
they point away from themselves. This is context-
dependent. Who isn’t a preposition. Underneath, behind,
around – this is what we were taught in third grade. When
we woke up to wetness. Proximity or relationship to a cloud –
Where I’m from, every white person I know owns
a gun. The molded metal cage of that air-
conditioner on the front porch isn’t something
to be ashamed of. Little girls’ legs are
spread – you have to. It’s for your own good.
A bite from a deer tick can be deadly. It rains
a lot here. Water just stands on the road.
TC Tolbert often identifies as a trans and genderqueer feminist, collaborator, dancer, and poet but really s/he’s just a human in love with humans doing human things. Gloria Anzaldúa said, Voyager, there are no bridges, one builds them as one walks. John Cage said, it’s lighter than you think. www.tctolbert.com
Fanzine’s Fall poetry editor is Julia Cohen. Her most recent book is a hybrid collection of lyric essays, I Was Not Born (Noemi Press, 2014). Her other books are Collateral Light (Brooklyn Arts Press, 2014) and Triggermoon Triggermoon (Black Lawrence Press, 2011). Her work appears in journals like DIAGRAM, Colorado Review, Entropy, The Destroyer, and Kenyon Review Online. She’s currently translating with Jens Bjering the Danish poet Theis Ørntoft. She lives in Chicago and is looking for snow pants.